I hate feeling naked. It is easily
the most uncomfortable thing in my existence. Now, this can come
about in a number of different ways but the first thing that comes to
mind is...my watch. I HATE walking around without my watch on. Is
it because I like to keep track of time? Sure. Is it because I look
like a crazy person when I check my wrist every 3 minutes?
Probably. Whatever the symptoms may be, being with out my watch
drives me crazy and makes me feel “naked” regardless of how many
layers of clothing I am wearing. I just don't feel right with out
it.
I am similarly crazy in my Crossfit
life.
Within a month of moving to the
Rochester area (loosely defined, I agree), I became known at my new
Crossfit place of residence as “the long socks, black shorts and
bandana” guy. Some of my new friends even toyed with dressing up
as me for Halloween that year. You see these things are basically
ever present components of what could be called my “Crossfit
Uniform.” Footwear changes with the needs of the workout and
shirts are especially fun with which to be anything but habitual.
But when you are dealing with Blake and Crossfit three things tend to
stay the same. Bandana head band, black shorts and long socks.
In my defense, The long socks serve a
purpose of protecting my shins from most potential injuries. I
cannot count the number of times long socks have saved me from box
jump misses and bar rubs from high rep deadlifts and Olympic lifts
gone astray . The head band/ bandana also serves a very practical
purpose. Specifically, it allows me to maintain my sense of sight
during workouts despite sweating in a fashion that can really only be
described as torrential. The black shorts? What can I say. Black is
hardcore, awesome and reeks of impending destromination of any and
all challenges to come. Oh, and I like the way I look in said
shorts. But in the end, there are plenty of people who face these two
particular hazards of the Crossfitter's world without bandanas and
long socks. So the question is why?
The answer here is the same as it is
with my watch conundrum. I feel naked without them. Neither of
these things provides any ounce of assistance to me, except maybe
the sweat band which has been keeping my eyes sweat free since church
camp circa 1995. In a way they are simply just part of who I see
myself to be. For whatever reason, good, bad or starking raving
ludicrous, they give me confidence or at the very least free me from
thinking too hard about things. A case could probably be made that I
don’t think about my socks and head band unless they aren’t
there. It would appear in that case to be a self inflicted crazy.
But is it?
Crash Davis has a word or two about
this. “If you believe you're playing well because you're getting
laid, or because you're not getting laid, or because you wear women's
underwear, then you *are*! “ (Bull Durham, 1988. If you haven't
seen this movie. What are you doing with your life?” If you think
something is helping, then you are. If the absence of something
seems like it is making you less of you you really are, then it
probably is.
That's how I feel about my watch. About my socks and
bandana and how everyone should feel about black shorts. But
something really important struck home with me as 2012 waned and 2013
approached. There was very little about my life of faith, my walk of
discipleship, that, if missing, made me feel the same way.
There is a very simple reason for
this. I am terribly inconsistent in my religious practice. What I
believe and what I do are often maddeningly incongruous. The reason
I feel naked when I forget to put my watch on is because it has been
a consistent part of my left wrist for about 5 years now. The reason
I don't feel right when I forget long socks or a bandana is because
that has been apart of my crossfitting attire pretty much since I
started 2+ years ago. What I have realized is, despite being a
pastor (newsflash, we are people too) I seem to not notice that my
faith's roll in my life is diminishing until it is tremendously
noticeable. This usually means I screw up in a huge way.
So as 2012 closed and 2013 was
preparing to be born, I prepared to preach a sermon on Colossians
3:12-17. And I was floored. God Is good at that after all. Here is
the text from one of Paul's greatest letters:
“As God’s chosen ones, holy and
beloved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility,
meekness, and patience. Bear with one another and, if anyone has a
complaint against another, forgive each other; just as the Lord has
forgiven you, so you also must forgive. Above all, clothe yourselves
with love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And
let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were
called in the one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell
in you richly; teach and admonish one another in all wisdom; and with
gratitude in your hearts sing psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs to
God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name
of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.”
What Paul was telling the church at
Colossae, me as I prepared for that sermon and really all of us, is
that our faith should be as omnipresent as the very clothing we wear.
It is the watch, the bandana and the headband of our lives. Notice,
I do not say of our spiritual lives. I do so for a very good reason.
Compartmentalizing our lives into the spiritual and the non
spiritual is absolutely impossible. In fact doing so is exactly what
I think has gotten me into trouble throughout my 31 years on this
earth. I don't care if I don’t have my watch on when I work out.
And I don't worry if I don’t have a bandana on when I am working at
church. Similarly, I must confess that I have been less than
concerned when I do not walk around with compassion, humility and
meekness. When I do not bind everything together with deep and
abiding love. When I put my desires before my commitment to live as
God would have me live.
My goal in this new year, is to daily
clothe myelf with Christ. To daily wear compassion, kindness,
humility, meekness and patience. Oh good Lord, I am bad at patience.
To bear with others and to forgive. And above all things to bind it
together with love. My prayer and my sure hope is that in doing
this, I will sooner than later feel naked when I am NOT doing these
things. I want to feel WRONG and troubled in my spirit when I am
pursuing anything but what God wants from me. Right now, I must confess and repent, I barely notice.
Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a
sinner. Strengthen me to daily clothe myself with you and your Holy
Spirit. May people who want to be me for Halloween have to do the
same.
And, if you have time,may all people
come to realize the power of high socks, bandanas and black shorts.
Now where did I put that watch?
Peace out people. Amen.